i miss you. i still visit you offten. so much i wanted to say. i pray you know how much you were loved.
I wish lil boy that you would have had the foresight to know the devistation that your leaving would have on those that love you so much. I see the hurtso deeply that is in your brother and your sister, I know the hurt that I hear in your moms voice, I know the hurt that I have in my heart, The hurt that my kids feel from the los of their sibling that they grew up with, it is so hard on everyone that you touched. We were all so blessed to have known you and all miss you so much!!! I wonder if you had the foresight if you would have done the same??? or would you do things differently if you had a do over and knew that all of your family, friends and loved ones would back you and see you through the hard times.
we all love and miss you so very much JP!!! and will seee you again when the Lord calls each onme of us to our just rewards
Jp I wish that you had of had the forsight to know how much everyone would miss you and how much everyone loves you, I sit here and watch your little brother wrestle with everything that has happened since you left us it is so hard. I know that you didn't have any idea how much it would take it's toll on those who love you so much.Your siblings will never be the same, even tho they still have my kids it just isn't the same. The memories they make with my kids are good ones that they cherish but it isn't You.if you had a do over would you choose the same outcome??? I hope that you would do it differently, because of all of the hurt that you have seen those whom loved you so dearly have had to live with. You touched so many lives and so many loved you so much and would have done anything in their power to help you. I know that you have reached the Peace that you were so desperatly seeking, I just wish that you would have hung around and let us help you, I promise that it would have gotten better!!I don't know why it had to be this way, just wish that you could have stayed here with us.We all miss you so much! There isn't a day that goes by that we don't remember your bueatiful smile and those twinkling blue eyes and long to see them again and hear that laugh that only you had. You were such a good boy and are missed so very much by all whose lives you touched, there is and emptyness there that only JP could fill!!! You are needed and loved so much more than you ever knew.Until the day that we are all joined togeather again, rest in Peace lil boy and know that we will always love and miss you !!!
Oh PBoy I can only ask you why??? The first time I ever spent time w/ you was when I took off to Illinois w/ you and your cusions and got caught, you rode back with me and held because I was so afraid of what was coming when I got home. You reassured me and made me feel safe... from that moment on I knew you were the only one for me. I was so afraid that night I practicley rode in your lap the whole way home. I remember when I really wanted something or wanted you to go somewhere with me I would stick my lip out and look at him really pitful and say "PBoy... Please!!!" You would look at my and bust out laughing and agree to do whatever it was. I remember when you went with me to pick up molly for the first time and when I bought you Buddy the lab pup. Yours eyes lit up so much and you were so excited over that dog. I remember when I was upset all you had to do was walk in the room and my spirits lifted instantly. We had our share of bad times but the making up was always the best part and I truly believe that it brought us closer together. One of the best memories I have was the after prom party when we spent the night together with you holding me. We had so many memories together. I will never forget you. You were my FIRST and my ONLY true love. There will always be a special place for you in my heart that no one can ever take away.
